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February 26 随感最近的生活似乎停滞下来了，每天除了去一下健身房，大部分的时间都是耗在了电脑前浏览网页。不久以后，即将面临论文答辩，基本上就是在论文的基础上写一些总结文字，大概A４的纸四页吧。
原本应该很有热情做的生意调查报告，到如今却也不是很有精神去做了，大概是受全球经济萧条的影响吧，加上亲爱的老姐一家都去了中国，并要在那呆上好一段时间，身边没有以往的支持力量。 但是内心深处，我知道这样的消极人生是不对的，需要时间自我调节，希望春天临近的脚步会带给我新的希望。。。。。。总之我需要时间思考，下一步的规划。。。。。。  July 11 nice wedding pictures in WuhanLuckily we got many nice wedding pictures from the Wuhan photo studio... we both like them very much.
To my surprise, Atro even enjoyed the time in making them.
We definately feel good about what we have chosen and insisted.. honeymoon trip around the worldWhat an amazing experience it is during our honeymoon trip!!! We have been travelling about 5 weeks since we finished our Finnish wedding party and flew away... from Sigapore to Australia, from there continuing to Fiji Island, then we stopped in Los Angeles, Denver and New York, finally we went to Paris for couple of days before we returned to Helsinki.
The whole trip was full of excitement and happiness. We saw different people and got close touch in local cuisine and culture as well as awesome sceneries. We tried to take different pictures of people, flowers and water... enjoying every single unforgettable moment...
Crabs, steaks and Chinese breakfast seem so easy and normal for me in every meal every day in this trip, so i didn't realize how lucky i was at that moment until i came back to Finland a few days ago...However, still thanks to my lovely husband, i have had really great time in honeymoon trip and it will never been forgotten...
April 17 A big change in my life is comingI haven't been to my space for a while because i went back to my hometown and stayed there 2 months. It was the first time that i could stay so long since i came to Finland to study, so i felt extremely excited about it. Every day during the time i was there, i met my best friends and hung out with them for shopping, teatime, and KTV. Besides, we talked what happened in our lives and what is going on now... the biggest thing which made i stay so long in China was my coming wedding in this June.
After thinking carefully, i decided to only have a ceremony in Finland instead of having it both in China and Finland. I didn't want it so complicated since i am not a person who is good at planning and entertaining the guests...
In order to have a better wedding ceremony in Finland than the one planned before, i went to the confirmation school so that i could become a christain, who is allowed to have a wedding in a church. This Saturday, i will be baptized by an experienced priest in Helsinki... now i am expecting it...
There are still a lot of things that have to be arranged, such as sending the invitation letters, renting the suitable party place, some documents, applying for the visa for the honey moon trips(visa to U.S. Australia, Sigapore...). Luckily, we still have a little time to hurry up...
Of course, for this big change for the place where we will have wedding, my parents are very welcome to present in the ceremony to witness.... and they will come May 6, in about 2 weeks. So I am very happy and excited about it...
December 27 back to China before the Spring Festivalsuffering from the insomnia the whole night, it was brought up that i would go back to China before the Spring Festival. Finally i can't keep the promise with my sister, instead, i go home without her company again.
At the moment while Atro clicked the mouse to buy flight ticket online, i knew it will be good. On one hand, it was the last day Finnair had cheap tickets offer and there were still a few left, on the other hand, i can meet my family again and celebrate the start of a new year without delaying my school and interrupting for applying visa.
Still, i feel guilty and regretful i didn't keep my words to my sister. I knew it is also very important and hard moment for her with my company. Hopefully she can enjoy staying in Brazil with Heikki and soon we see each other again. Sorry !!!
Unbelievable, less than one week, i will fly back to China again. I don't know what wait for me in China, and how my feeling will be when i leave for Helsinki. Who cares, the only important thing is that i must enjoy it and be thankful for what i owned. I am lucky girl...:) November 21 i am backLong time stuck with school. Today have a little time, and then come online to write something casually. Time goes fasr, this is the second winter i am in Finland. Daytime gets shorter and shorter,i feel more tired and tired. When i got home and took a rest, thinking about the days staying in Finland. Besides school, i haven't got anything done, have no goal achieved. Feeling frustrated and useless is terrible thing, now i need to spend time in thinking more and doing more in practice...Thanks for the God, i am still young and energetic,can afford the failure in some sense. Hopefully i can restart doing my own business soon... June 03 Atro's birthday of 25(the first time we celebrated together)My poor monkey is so poor and has to wake up early at weekend to make his birthday cake himself and then go to do paper work. I guess there is no even worse thing than this in the world.
Due to the cakes i made yesterday too hard even though with a good looks, he has to wake up early to make new one under my asking for the way for him to show how to make cakes. Of course, he is more professional and perfect cakes cook, only after a while, soft and beautiful heart cakes appeared in front of us... here are some pictures' comparison between his works and mine.
The former three are for mine, because i used almost all of the materials for decoration, so they are looking better after making up. But through the latter pictures, it's easy to see they are more smooth and in good shape of his. Sorry for the horrible present for him, i have to say... May 22 I will leave Kajaani soon, but friends left earlier than meAll the school will be ended soon and i will leave Kajaani this weekend. Before that, all of my best friends left one by one. I saw off my best friend---Sylvine, a French girl to the airport last weekend. But i held my tears in front of her, becauce i knew we will meet again soon, only the problem of time, sooner or later.
I wish she could have a nice trip in Paris and safely home, best wishes and regards to her and all her families, my best friend. I will miss you badly...
May 17 almost one year passedIt's going so fast that i can't feel it that one year almost passed. In Kajaani, a northern city of Finland, i experienced a lot. Study in school, making good friends with exchange students from anywhere in the world and many outside activities color my life in each perspective.
And now all the school will be ended and summer holidays are at the corner, students going homelands one by one. My mood is falling contradicted diplemma---happy since i will start my holiday to relax a little bit and wait my father's coming, but sad due to the best friends' leaving so soon.
There is a Chinese saying: there is not any endless party. I understood it, but still feel so difficult to face it when it's truly happening to me.
The only thing i can do is enjoying the rest of days when we are together and cherish them in my memory.
Best wishes to everyone who will leave Finland, all my friends in Kajaani.
Thank you the God making us have those days to recall and retaste...
Look forward to seeing all of you some day!!! February 20 我做的面包早早就抄到了法国妹妹做的好吃面包的配方，一直都懒于实践，今天一个人独自在家，久坐桌前工作了一个下午，决定起来活动一下，而活动就选定做可爱面包。 照着葫芦画瓢，把面粉，盐，糖混合的时候，一切都还很正常，可是和面的时候加奶的时候一下多，一下少，折腾了好一阵子，最终才搞定，发酵了３５分钟，进炉，又３０分钟，就好了，得到了不少赞许，毕竟是我的第一次尝试，大家都很是捧场，呵呵...... February 18 在kajaani的快乐周末清晨起来，就看见可爱的法国妹妹刚从LAUNDRY回来，加上整天笑呵呵的奥地利女孩，我们一起快乐地用完早餐，三文治，面包，牛奶，水果。。。。。。彻头彻尾一顿丰富的营养早餐过后，懒洋洋的我开始忙乱起卫生来，不做不知道，一做吓一跳，还真是不假，到处布满了灰尘，２个小时左右的忙碌后，整个房间噌亮起来，大约１１点左右，我，SYLVINE，IjA(立陶宛女孩)一起前往中心，开始了我们的远足行动，又是两个小时过去了，一行人来到了LITL采购了一些必需的食物后动身回到了温馨小屋。
得到了新鲜空气的我们各自忙碌开了，不知不觉，一个下午就这样流逝了，值得庆幸的是有效地快走和些许完成的工作。
晚间可爱的法国妹妹回到家里，到处就开始洋溢着我们的笑声，一直持续，回响，我们画彼此，象卡通一样搞笑，吃着奥地利的新鲜面包，蔬菜，快乐得享受着生活。。。。。。  February 16 smiling the whole day晕，一天之内有这么多开心的事情发生，我似乎就没有停止片刻的微笑。
 先是意大利语居然没有挂，考得比我预想的好多拉，再就是电脑考试１小时搞定(本来可以更早的，检查存盘情况花了点时间，机子速度太慢)，
最重要的是收到他的短信，瞬间感觉自己飞上云霄的感觉真的是很好。
 客观的说真的没有理由抱怨，老天眷顾我太多，在我现在的生活里少有烦恼和忧愁，只是思念占据了部分的快乐，如此而已
 希望我的快乐能插上翅膀，与我亲爱的家人同在!!!  晨曦刺耳的闹铃又一次把我从温暖的被窝里残忍地拽了出来，又到了意大利语的上课时间８点，什么概念 大学生活开始于八点，有点抓狂......
 透过厚重的窗子，已经能看到美丽的晨曦，虽然暂时还感受不到温暖照射，心里却充满了喜悦与期盼---知道白天的时间在逐渐增长，夏天的脚步声越来越清晰，父亲来芬兰度假的日子也逐渐步入新的日程表.......
 February 13 just want to write something causuallySpending a nice weekend in a hurry, original life in school for a new week is starting again. Attending some lectures, doing homework and some interesting or boring things. Life is still continueing...
   In the following two weeks, i hope i can attentively spend the whole time on finishing my homework and preparing presentations and business plans. In case i fail to those courses i chose and losing faces in the mistakes.
 But if i have a very good luck, i also want to meet my dear sister in the third weekend before she goes back to lovely China...I am so jealous that she can meet my dear family again, enjoying the real Chinese food and shopping...Even though i just came back from China one month ago, i miss my family so much and my honey dog "candy"
 .Truly wish them very well and happy always.Still want to write something here, but i have to stop due to my Italian exam tomorrow early morning. I don't want to fail even if it's only a quiz.
 Study, study and study, some good things will happen finally i believe  February 06 ---It is extremely cold again in Kajaani right now. When i got off the train and walked on the way to school, the wind was cutting my face like a sharp knife. This was just a beginning of a week, but i was so busy.After getting all the documents required by Lahti Polytechnic, i hurried to the post office in center. Unfortunately, i forgot the cap home and the results you can imagine...
Sometimes life is going on without any wave, and suddenly all the things happen... even you don't have much more time to give response to them...all the schools start the affairs of transfer at the same time. I feel the hard days will end soon , as the result i don't feel frustrated although i was so tired and uncomfortable due to the horrible coldness.  February 02 Found lovely cakes seriesIn the process of downloading those pictures of lovely cakes, i found my mood changing a little, not that bad any more...
So my friends hopefully when you see them, you can also feel well   February 01 a long dayI had a long day , busy with the tasks from different courses. As soon as i finished all of them , i took the first mouth of fresh air deeply. Feel so good and relaxing.
As Sylvine agreed to wait for me before, she was at home and sitting beside the table for study while my going home. After a short preparation we set off and walked to ...
I didn't realize time went so fast in the process of shopping, probably spent 1 or 2 hours in the store. Surely we got a lot home and started cooking dinner. Fried chicken steaks and chicken with mushrooms, peas and corns in special sauce very successful. And Sylvine, cooked French food---fried apple slices with butter, pasta with eggs and cheese. We were talking and eating, forgot the time again, almost lasting 2 hours again, so efficient January 29 make a footprint so lateLast night, that was the first New Year's celebration in Lahti of Finland if i will study here 3.5 years. It was a cherish memory in my life.In the afternoon( also Chinese eve of New Year) i called my families with my dear sister Jing, first of all it's to my dad, mum and then all the relatives.
 After giving good and lucky wishes to them, we went shopping for a while, pity nothing being found by us.
Around 5 pm, we driven to Chinese restaurant. ordered six courses( beef, chicken and tofu and so on) and appreciating the special tv programme for New Year from China. We had a wonderful evening, playing cards, Finnish games and talking, quite interesting also felt much closer with each other. The laughter was full of the room, a nice experience. As well as a good biginning between Jing and Atro, i believe they will be getting along well with each other, even much better...
  Too happy to remember the time going fast, so leave a footprint today. January 25 so depressedI am still alive in so cold a city---kajaani. But i feel much colder in my heart, not due to the horrible weather or the homesickness.
Why i have this kind of strange feeling? " Everyone loves you so much, your sister, Heikki, me and your parents, families..." Listening to those words again and again from my boyfriend, sometimes taste much sweet. Instead i feel bitter and sour in my mind. Because you all love me so much, i am not allowed to oppose you or make you unhappy.
To make my sister satisfied, i can't say "NO " to her and study hard to make her has something worth being proud.
To make my parents happy, i go abroad study again, even i am so old out of the suitable age to be a student. I said i was so fine, everything was ok all along.
To make him happy, i must put him in the most important position all the time even though sometimes there is conflict between him and my family, esp. my powerful sister.
One day, when i can't make them happy at the same time, what should i do? what can i do? I am truly confused with this. I wish i can get rid of the mask to get along with strangers, just say something really in my opinion without the fake description. Otherwise i won't make sure we are family or not.
Tired, fake pretending, and carefulness, those make me almost to the cliff to be crazy! No way out!!!  I want to cry as loudly as i can... |
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